Last week a friend asked me why she doubted God. She struggled to believe
a promise which the Lord had confirmed through prayer and Scripture. She
couldn't grasp it, because she doubted her own ability to hear from Him.
Despair settled upon her, and there was little chance that faith might take
root.
The
relationship between doubt, despair, hope and faith is explored by Edmund Spenser
in his allegorical poem, The Faerie Queen
(Middlesex, England,: Penguin Books, 1978). Faith goes for a walk in a forest
named Doubt. Faith becomes lost, and meets a person named Despair. Despair
assures Faith that he can lead her out of the forest of Doubt. Despair leads
Faith to a river called Suicide and tells her to jump in. Just as Faith is
about to jump into the river, Hope comes along, takes Faith by the hand, and
leads her away from Despair and out of Doubt.
How many of us
wander through a forest of doubt everyday, and grabbing hold of despair, follow
him instead of hope? Despair's mission is to destroy hope, and bring spiritual
death to your faith. At this point the stage is set for hope's entrance, but
somehow hope is stuck in the wings. Perhaps we wait for hope to gallop on to
our stage as a knight on a white horse. Most often, though, hope enters as a
tiny spark which, when fanned into a flame, has the potential to grow into
great faith.
Doubt is a state of
mind, but disbelief is a state of your spirit. Disbelief is the result of
spiritual death. Doubt hears Jesus knocking at the door, and longs to open it.
Disbelief doesn't even hear His knock (Revelation 3:21).When despair pulls you down to the point
of spiritual death, and disbelief has overwhelmed your spirit, you forget that
there is any hope.
However, there is great
news! Jesus Christ died so that you might have hope! Consider Jesus Christ as
Hope in Spenser's poem. He is the Savior that comes as a still small voice and
speaks to our despair—encouraging us not to sink into the depths of
disbelief. If we allow He guides us away from spiritual death toward a life of
faith.
“Isn't this stupid?” my
friend asked. “To doubt what I have heard from God?” She didn't want to change
God's will into her own, but she was so terrified of doing just that very
thing, despair was ready to claim her.
Following the
resurrection Jesus appeared to the disciples. “Why do doubts rise in your
minds? Look at my hands and my feet. Touch me and see” (Luke 24:37-39). David
Seamands writes of Christ as our wounded healer. “If he merely understood the
fact of our infirmities, that would be good enough. But I've got better news
for you. He understood the feelings of our infirmities—not just the
crippling, not just the weaknesses, not just the emotional hang-ups and inner
conflict, but the pain that comes from them” (Healing for Damaged Emotions, [Colorado: Chariot Victor Publishing,
1991], 43). Jesus was wounded for our transgressions and for our feelings of
despair-not just with His mind, but with His body and His spirit (Hebrews 4:15).
Oswald Chambers describes
a spiritual plane where doubt can not intrude as one of “sublime intimacy”. “Believe
steadfastly on Him, and all you come up against will develop your faith” (My Utmost for His Highest [Michigan:
Discovery House Publishers, 1963], 177). “Faith,” Chambers concludes, “is unutterable
trust in God, trust which never dreams that He will not stand by us” (page
177). Sublime intimacy with the Savior is where faith has been tested and has
become our personal possession. It has
become pure joy because it has overcome our deepest suffering (James 1:2-3).
My friend has a great longing in her heart to
reach this higher spiritual plane. She realizes that this can only be found in
Jesus. She has discovered that if she concentrates on what she has been
promised instead of the One who gave her the promise, she loses the faith not
only to believe the promise, but also faith in the One who gave her the
promise.
Don’t follow Despair around in your forest of Doubt. Despair will lead you to the
river and tell you to end it all. But Faith will build a bridge and speak hope
to your promise.
“Did I not tell you that if you believed, you
would see the glory of God?" Jesus asked Martha after raising Lazarus from
the dead (John 11:40). Hope
takes Faith by the hand, and leads her away from Despair and out of
Doubt. Jesus waits for you to place your hand into His wounded one and believe.
Reach up and grasp
His wounded hand and you grasp His promise.
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