Why do I sometimes struggle so hard with faith in God's love? He is my Lord, the healer of my heart, my mind, my spirit, and soul. The moment I have a need, He is with me. If I could just really understand the depths of His love, then I would understand that no pleading is necessary for Him to come. The need in my heart calls Him to me. He is my loving father, and I want to realize with my innermost being that He desires healing and the fullness of His Spirit alive in me.
The psalmist describes this depth of my need–this longing, and God’s answer. “Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me” (Psalm 42:7). The unfathomable depth of the Spirit of God calls to the depth of my spirit, and bids me to let go. At the moment I surrender, the fullness and power of the His Presence sweeps over me.
“Call to me,” He whispers in my heart. “My spirit longs to commune with yours. Please don't ever forget that the deepest healing of body, and mind, and spirit comes from the surrender of your spirit to mine. Release your deepest fear to me, and all the healing of my power is completely at your disposal. The moment you have a need I am with you.” My need is His chance to provide, and my opportunity to allow my faith to believe in what He has promised. A little mustard seed of surrendering faith is all that I must plant in the soil of my spirit to receive the fullness of His power. It is such a small investment, but it unlocks all of His supply.
My decision is to surrender all to Him. His promise is to live in me. With the power of God in my life, nothing that tries to destroy me will prosper. There will be no problem too great, and no worry that will consume my thoughts. My mind will be fixed only on Him, and instead of fear, He will consume everything about me. His joy and peace will reign, and I will be His completely.
I long for His peace and His power! The Holy Spirit calls to my spirit, and asks for my surrender. He longs to wash over me, but I must give all that I am. I must hold nothing back. When I yield all of myself, the fullness of God becomes the fullness of me. At that moment I am no longer my own. I have been fully purchased and claimed by the Savior who gave all for me. At that moment I am free.