Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me.
—John 14:1 (NLT)
My heart is finally at peace, Lord. For years I’d struggled with thoughts that had threatened my heart, but you came, Holy Spirit, and ended the torment. You swept into the barren place where I only existed and bestowed peace. I finally tired of battling the fears of yesterday, today, and tomorrow. When I finally realized the love with which you had accepted me, I had hope for the end of the pain of rejection and heartache. You were the only answer for my heart to be at peace. Trusting you was my only answer.
Trusting you meant letting go of who I perceived myself to be, and allowing you to mold me into who you had created me to me. I’d never discover my identity in you if I didn’t let go of all I thought I had to fix, and allow you to have control. I’d never know your heart beating in me until I let you have my own.
I found trust on your altar. I found trust when I gave up the struggle to take care of only what you could make right. I discovered trust when I let go of my control with praise in my heart for your promise of deliverance. It was a sacrifice of praise and a sacrifice of self. And with that sacrifice came your power gradually strengthening me and wiping the troubled thoughts from my mind. Peace settled in my soul— not as the world gives, but peace as only you can breathe.
© 2018 Lynn Lacher