My Price to Experience Him

 

For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain. 
—Philippians 1:21

You show me again and again I’m to die to myself. That it’s gain. That I win by losing. Help me to let go all I believe I am to believe all You say I am. If You are to live in me, I can only live by the faith You have given me. 

Lord, You always surpass my expectations and limitations. Yours are greater than mine. I want to be a tool in Your Hands. Help me to continually receive the truth that I own nothing in this life; everything is Yours. My plans and my dreams are Yours. I am Your possession. Jesus, it costs me everything for You to live in Me. This is the price I must pay. I can’t withhold anything. Help me to make this choice in every moment. To welcome You, my Beloved, who gave everything for me, into each feeling, thought, and decision. Help me to trust You with all of my heart and not surrender to my own understanding. I choose this, today, tomorrow, and everyday until dying gains me heaven. 

Lord, even when it hurts, more than anything I want to be obedient to the faith You have placed in me. There have been times that the things You have led me to say or do have broken my heart or the fear of man has ensnared me. And when I’ve hesitated or refused, I’ve frustrated Your anointing in my life. I repent, praying never to hinder You again.

Strengthen me to pay the price of loneliness. There are places You take me that are for me alone. Others cannot understand because they don’t discern what You have revealed. Help me to pay the price of being misunderstood. Only You explain Your heart, Jesus. I can’t. I’ve nothing to explain.

Help me to always pay the price of brokenness. It’s in the brokenness I receive your healing. It’s in the wholeness, You pour and use me. I humble myself again and again to receive more and more grace. It’s not a one time thing. It’s in every day and every moment. You laid down Your will for me so I could know Your suffering and the power of Your resurrection. Help me to lay down mine so that I may experience all of You.

Lord Jesus, help me to pay the price of discipline. I want to guard my time, my words, and my feelings. I choose You to be my Center. You are my intention, my purpose, and my heart. I never want to be passive about You. There is too much at stake to be passive about You. I desire You to work in me, doing exceedingly more than I think or ask.

It’s Your Glory, Lord. Help me to die to self and pay the price. You paid the price for me. I lay down all my rights. I give up the right to prove or promote myself in anyway. I’m willing, Lord. It costs all of me to receive all of You. I choose you. If You use me, Father, may it be You who is seen and You alone.