Sometime
in your lifetime you will discover that something you have done has
offended someone you truly care for. You will be totally unaware of
it, and suddenly it is before you. The news stops you in your tracks.
Where you once felt the openness of the Holy Spirit, you suddenly
face a wall that you hadn't even known existed. How do you handle
that crippling information you haven't known? First you look inside
your heart and ask the Lord to reveal to you your motive. John Wesley
wrote that sin is found in the motive of the heart. If the motive
behind your action comes from pride, anger, bitterness, resentment,
jealousy or the like, the action is sin. If the motive for what you
have done comes from a heart of love that desires the best for
someone else, then the failure is not sin. It is the way that
something was handled. What you have discovered is not discipline to
correct sin, but pruning of self so that the harvest that is already
in your life can bring forth more abundant fruit.
Even
if your motive is right, it still breaks your heart to think you have
wounded a friend. Much worse is to wonder if you have broken the
Lord’s heart. “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to
forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1
John 1:9, NIV). “Have mercy on me, O God,” David cried,
“according to your unfailing love; according to your great
compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and
cleanse me from my sin” (Psalm 51:1-2, NIV). If you confess, He is
faithful to forgive, and cleanse your heart. If you ask for His
unfailing love, you will know and experience His forgiveness once
again. Your heart will be pliable in His hands. If you fail Him in
anyway, your heart will horribly ache. You will feel and know His
pain as if it is your own.
Lord,
if I have wounded and made another one stumble, then forgive me. If I
have said words without thinking that have wounded, forgive me. If I
have turned away from someone's painful cry because I might suffer
too, then forgive me. If I have been cold and unfeeling to someone's
need, forgive me. If I have run from my responsibility and longed to
be hidden from its requirement, then, please, forgive me. Lord, I
confess the sins and failures that I know, and the ones that I do not
know. Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit
within me (Psalm 51:10). Everyday renew your spirit within me. Keep
me soft and pliable on your altar so your steadfast spirit is secured
within me. Guide me. Love me, and keep me safe from my own ability to
fail you. I place my life in your hands today, and trust you will do
whatever is necessary to mold me and renew my heart. It needs
renewing, Lord, because it has never been so broken. Thank you,
Jesus, that a broken and contrite heart you will not despise, but
will love with all the grace of Calvary.
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