But you, O Lord, are a shield around me; you are my glory, the one who holds my head high. I cried out to the Lord, and he answered me from his holy mountain. I lay down and slept, yet I woke up in safety, for the Lord was watching over me. I am not afraid of ten thousand enemies who surround me on every side.
—Psalm 3:3-6 NLT
You are my Savior, Lord, but there are times I have trouble laying “self” down. You long for me to know who I am in you. You know my potential. You yearn for me to stop striving, and allow you to develop me. Help me to lay myself down before you, Lord. Help me to surrender my needs—my thoughts—my desires—my preconceived notions—my expectations—my ideas—my beliefs—my likes—my dislikes—my heart—my mind—my whole being to your work in me.
I cannot shield myself. I cannot save myself. I cannot fix anything. I cannot be good enough. Striving to be good enough gets me nowhere. You have accomplished who I am on Calvary, but I need to allow it. Your purpose was accomplished. What has separated me from your glory has been ripped into shreds. Your altar waits. You wait for me to enter into your fullness of life. You wait to not only shield me from all dead attempts to change my life, but you wait for me to understand that you alone are my glory. You are the one who changes me—who molds me. You are the one who lifts me from destruction—who holds my head high above sin and self that wishes to destroy the potential waiting to be accomplished in me. I carry the capacity to be who you died for me to be. A new creature! I long to know this person! When I surrender to your work in me, you are the shield that protects me. You are my glory that holds my head high. You are the one who strengthens and empowers my life.
I cry out in surrender to you, and you answer me from your holy mountain. You are my glory and salvation—my Mount Zion. I give up the struggle to make myself new, and allow you make me new. And with that release comes your peace—your peace which my human mind cannot grasp on its own. You are in control. I lay down and sleep in your peace. I wake up in your safety, because you are my Savior. You have saved me by your grace, and not by my works. I am not afraid of anything that comes against me, because I have surrendered to your peace, your protection, and what you accomplish in me. I stand in your power. You are my shield. You are my glory.
© 2018 Lynn Lacher