Have you ever felt that you will never accomplish anything of worth? Have you ever believed that there is nothing you can say or do that will ever make a difference? Have you ever known the burden of expectation that seems out of reach? At some point in your life you have experienced rejection, discouragement, despair, and pain. At some point you have felt that you were just not good enough. I am what I think I am (Proverbs 27:3). If I believe I am worthless, I am worthless. Whether I realize it or not, I “do unto others” what has been done unto me. If I have been labeled as never quite being good enough, then I pass that negativism along in my expectations of those I love. If I see myself as being beyond hope, then I see others in the same light.
Into this seemingly endless cycle of despair at
never quite being good enough, God attempts to break into our negative
and pessimistic minds. He waits to speak life to all that we have
suffered in our past, life to our present, and life to our future. He
wants who I am to “be” found in Him alone. He wishes for us to realize
that unlike what expectations we may have felt from others, whether real
or imagined, His expectation is thoroughly attainable. He sees the
promise in my life where another might not see it, and, if I truly
listen to Him and obey His instruction, then I will find release from my
human failures. I will discover who I really am. In His love, I can
break that bondage of despair and frustration. I can do more than just
hope one day that I can “become” free of all that has defined who I am, I
can choose to really “be” free.
“When I was a child, I talked
like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child” (1
Corinthians 13:11a). I was once a child. So were you. Those who loved us
watched us struggle to crawl or learn to walk. They watched every move
we made, expecting to see miraculous change. They rejoiced over us when
we achieved a new accomplishment, and they were sad when we failed. We
were only little children wanting to me loved for who we were right at
that moment.... not for any accomplishment. God does not love us because
of anything we have done. He loves us because of what He has done for
us. He sees our crying out to be loved. When you accept His love, the
bondage is broken, and you are able to not only know freedom, but to
extend freedom in your expectation of others.
“Just love me!”
is our cry. I pray that God gives each one of us His eyes to see the
potential not only in ourselves, but in others. I pray we learn to speak
life to each heart instead of death. To speak blessing instead of
failure. To speak joy instead of despair. To speak life full of joy and
healing. To see promise where we have seen failure. To believe in what
cannot be seen, and to know that one day it will be true.