I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Advocate, who will never leave you.
—John 14:16 (NLT)
Perhaps your whole world has been turned upside down, and your heart feels broken. God is your Father, and He has promised to care for you. Do you wonder why He let something happen that you believed with all your heart He would prevent? If your hurt escalates, you become angry with God and push Him away. You may even internalize your anger and feel guilty about it. The result is disillusionment and bitterness.
You have a choice what to do with your hurt. If you allow your pain to control your thoughts, you give it the power to immobilize you. You are then in bondage to your inability to forgive God and to forgive yourself. The Holy Spirit invites you to acknowledge the hurt that caused your anger. “Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom,” Paul writes (2 Corinthians 3:17). You have the freedom and the power to release your anger to God.
God is your loving “Abba” Father—not a God you must appease! Jesus took care of that for you! You can be real with God. Tell Him you are angry because you believe He has failed you. Tell Him you are mad at yourself for being upset. He does not punish you because of anything you have done! Don’t condemn yourself. He doesn’t condemn you. Continue to be honest with Him. Some days will be easier than others. Don’t despair. The Holy Spirit is your advocate on earth—your constant support. He will never leave you.
You are on the road to healing in Jesus’ grace. Each day God carries more and more of your load, and your pain is lighter. One day you realize that your hurt is entirely gone. You are free from all your self-destructive anger. You know God will never fail you. You know, without a doubt, that He is constant and unchanging. And that is rest. That is His peace.
© 2019 Lynn Lacher