Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
—2 Corinthians 4:16 NIV
The one thing you had hoped to avoid has happened, Daddy. It came like a thief in the night, and you were robbed of your mind—your hopes—your dreams. I pray each time I see you to find you better than the time before, but so often you are worse, wrapped in your cocoon of vanished memories. When Mama lived through this for eight years, I had thought there could be no greater pain than losing her minute by minute. Now I have discovered that grief for her loss is part of the grief I feel in losing you. But I have a reason not to lose heart. Outwardly you waste away, yet inwardly I know to whom you belong. You tried to write again recently for another mental assessment, and even though it was not legible, you told the nurse that you had written, “Jesus saves.” In your lost world, He renews you in ways that I can never understand. I am so thankful He walks this lonesome valley with you, and in His gracious mercy holds you safely in His care. He also walks this road with me, Daddy. And miraculously through the pain that often feels too much to bear, I, too, am being renewed day by day.
©2017 Lynn Lacher